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Writer's pictureKatrina Julia
Sep 2, 20209 min read

Self Hate to Love: Bible Study and Series on Fighting for Freedom

Many of us, believers and non-believers struggle with self-hate. This shows up in many ways, shapes and forms from internal thoughts to external behaviors in life. I know I did for years in my faith, purity, love, calling, purpose, and freedom. This showed up in countless ways from the inside out.


The greatest two commandments are Love God with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength; and Love our neighbor as ourselves. In my own life, I have seen first hand the more I love God and receive His love, the more He teaches me to love myself and love others.


In 2019, I received divine downloads for sharing studies in a 7 part series aligned to my testimony and story. In February, I finished my Bible Study series, Fear to Faith sharing my journey. In April, I finished my Bible Study series, Devaluing to Purity. I finished this study, Self Hate to Love, in August.


My Fear to Faith series is one of my most listened to series in 2020. Many of us are learning to shift from fear to faith. Many of us struggle with accepting how God loves, His mercy, His grace, and His forgiveness. Until I fully got into His word and dedicated time with Him first things first faithfully starting in 2019 consistently, my journey with self love was obstructed.


The more I prioritize Him, and create space and time, the more He has poured into me. I am blown away at how He multiples my time, impact of our community, and gives me margin for rest abundantly.


Not only that, but If you would have told me last month, last week, seven years ago, that I would be writing bible studies and devotionals, I would have told you that you are crazy. God does not do things like man. He doesn't judge like man. He uses imperfect people in countless ways. When you read the Bible, you immediately see that, as well as the love stories.


And yet, here I am sharing my third one with you. Self Hate to Love is part 3 of a 7 part series.


Sneak Peek to Self Hate to Love:

Fighting for Freedom: a 40 Day Devotional


A series of messes to a message. A series of tests to testimonies.

Fighting for freedom in all ways, all things and all forms.

What I have learned is this, friend. God is unpredictable.

So, is our time and lives on the planet.


This year more than ever, I have learned I am not in control. I have learned I never was. I am a co-creator and co-pilot. I may be given dreams and desires, yet the how, way, and timing isn't up to me 100%. I seek guidance and do my part continuously.


Whether you have joined me on this journey before, tuned in to the Fear to Faith or Devaluing to Purity series, completed the studies, or you are joining me for the first time - Welcome.


I pray that God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit lead You. I pray you walk in faith, purity and love towards your passion and purpose with joy and abundance.


As they have spoken to me through countless teachers from the womb until now. Be clear, friend.

I have zero degrees in Biblical studies or seminary. Yet, here I am. I have countless experiences with God and in life.


God has pursued me deeply and profoundly at each and every turn. I am truly like the 1 sheep he leaves the 99 for, repeatedly. From childhood studies in Catholic Church Education to Vacation Bible Schools to Church Camps to speaking to me in every way and every teacher to studies with Beth Moore, Priscilla Shirer, Louie Giglio, Pastor Michael Todd, Natasha and Jamal Miller, and so many more.


I am loved with an everlasting love. What I know is this. I am grateful for each and every co-creator that shared their story & voice. I am grateful for every creation, transformation, and inspiration.


I know some of you may have found me or this site because of wellness, lifestyle, media, and/or travel. Perhaps you found us via an article on social media, smoothies, or scaling?


You may believe God or you may not.


However, please know the foundation of FIT Life Creation right down to the name is God's.

God is in my business.


(FIT stands for Follow Love in All We Do, Impact People, and Transform the Mind).

The acronym ties to 1 John 4:7, Mark 12:30, and Romans 12:2.


Every single thing I share is prayed about and divinely directed. I pray for abiding, alignment and abundance every day, among many other prayers. I learned personally from years of excluding God what a mistake that was in every area of my life.


So, now I include God in everything.

God is in every bit of my business.


I pray you to let Him in every part of your life and business.



Photo Credit: Lyndsey Hobby Atlanta



I realized over the last several years the message that God wants me to share is freedom, creation, transformation, and inspiration. Pointing back to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit in every way.


My message to you is
Create, Transform and Inspire
You Are Born To

You will find like I have found my friend, that life is a tapestry of love, pain, purpose, and freedom.

As I write this, I have tears in my eyes. I have profoundly, utterly and catastrophically messed up in so many ways in life. But God.


Your creation and transformation leads to the inspiration of others.


I have learned without God, I am nothing & I have nothing. I have countless examples where I externally had the health, status, recognition, money, community, relationships, and yet it was empty without my soul being fulfilled with our Creator.



Psalms 37:4


HIGHLIGHTS ABOUT MY STORY

I share my story simply to help you connect to your own.


So, you know that I am a Freedom Fighter and I walk alongside our Creator and you.


And, that I have fought with Him for Freedom in every way

Create with me on this journey with


Part 3: Self Hate to Love as I walk in and to freedom every day.

Part 3 of a 7 Part Series

Fear to Faith

Devaluing to Purity

Self Hate to Love

Corporate to Calling

Pain to Purpose

Lies to Love

Bondage to Freedom



Photo Credit: Lyndsey Hobby Atlanta



I'm a woman who has walked from self hate to love and continues to.

I'm a woman who has turned countless messes to a message with God's love.


It's time to simplify transformation in health, wealth and business so you get the results and life you love. I was once where you may be. I felt like I was in the wrong life, despite doing all the things that people told me were right.


I felt like I was in shackles spiritually, mentally, emotionally, relationally, playfully, and financially. I allowed lies, the external and the world to shape who I was. I made decisions that showed hatred of myself in many ways from my mind to my health to my relationships to my business.


The more I turned to the eternal, internal and freedom with our Creator, the more I am set free daily.


For years until 2011-2013, I found myself not openly receiving the love of God.

As a result, I didn't know how to fully love myself and others.


In my health, I was nowhere the health I wanted, always tired and over 55 pounds heavier than I am today.


In my calling and purpose for years, I found myself bouncing into different industries searching externally for the calling and riches God placed on the inside of me.


Always helping others pursue their dreams and making them six to eight figures consistently year over year. Yet, my own self worth, health, wealth, and business were in complete chaos.


Step by step, I got clear on putting passion and purpose first to focusing on pleasing people and profits and continue to.


I remember feeling despite all my certifications and results, I was missing something deep inside. Something important, like myself and who our Creator called me to be.


The truth is, I forgot or buried so many pieces of myself deep inside. Yes, I had tons of experience in over seven industries, yet I was unclear if I had wasted my time and my life and about what it all meant.


I was continuing in the rat race and on the hamster wheel wondering how on earth was I going to pursue my passion and my purpose and transform my own life. Anyone else relates? Or am I all alone?


Deep breath.


I get it. The joy you see on my face in any pictures and the peace you hear in my voice has been missing for quite some time. Desire, drive, and determination keeps me going.


There came a point where nothing and no one spoke to my soul and spirit like our Creator, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. That's because no one on earth can speak to your soul as the Spirit does.


The Creator knows His Creation.

I realized I am a multi-passionate entrepreneur. I realized I walked through these experiences so that I could transform my own journey, as well as relate to many of our journeys.


What if every single part of you, your path, and your pain has shaped you for the purpose you are put on this planet for?

That's why I'm SO passionate about helping you fight for your freedom. Freedom in All Forms. It is for Freedom Christ set us FREE. Galatians 5:1.


It is time that we walk in FREEDOM in ALL WAYS.



Photo by Arnel Hasanovic on Unsplash


Foundation Matters


As I reflect backward on my life, I recognize a lack of a firm foundation of love that permeated my life for years. How do I know?


Well, the lack of a firm foundation showed up in my thoughts, words, and deeds.

It impacted every area of life. One side of my family poured love into me in countless ways selflessly.

The other would one minute love me, the next erupt in anger, judgement, or condemnation.


The fears, the lies, and the external confused me in many ways until I learned to focus on first things first. Please know that 2019 was the first year the Holy Spirit put on my heart to read the Bible straight through. It has blessed me like nothing else.


I am now close to finishing my second time through. The second time around I took increased time. I will continue to read the Bible straight through for the rest of my life.


As I reflected on ways I devalued myself in faith, health, wealth, business, and community; I could see clearly how my foundation needed to be repaired.


How I have a a daily choice to choose loving Him, loving myself, loving my neighbors, and His ways.


My prayer for you, friend is you focus on your foundation of faith and freedom this week. I pray you see where it's time for you to shift from self hate to love. I pray you see where you have believed and behaved in ways that show you do not love yourself.


I pray that each and every day God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit invade your heart like a flood.


I pray that you know that you are seen, heard, known, and loved by the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth. I pray that you know that we are here for a purpose on this planet. I pray you rise up and fight for your freedom.


I pray that He speaks to your spirit, soul, mind, and body as only our Creator can exactly how you need at this moment now. I pray this resource blesses you now at this moment on earth and to eternity.


Examples of a Day in the 40 Day Devotional

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Self Hate to Love

My journey from self hate to love is not over. I am grateful for all the ways I have learned to love God, love myself and love others. At the same time, every day I discover new ways to show my love to God, myself and others.


You will feel shifts in your mind, body, heart in every way. The more you keep your eyes, mind and heart fixed on Him; the easier it becomes. Accept it is a journey, not a destination. You will be challenged to change in countless ways.


I choose to crawl, walk or run from self hate to love each and every moment. I hope you choose to. What insights did you get in the preview of Self Hate to Love: Part 3 of 7: 40 Day Devotional?


Take your next step to walk from self hate to love.


If you love this post, you'll love Devaluing to Purity: Sneak Peak to 40 Day Devotional.


Create. Transform. Inspire.

You Were Born to.





 










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